My Disfunctional Family

This video describes perfectly my disfunctional family structure. My older brother was the perfectionist child, the hero child, who could do no wrong in our parents life. I was the scapegoat child who was treated with contempt about everything. My middle brother was the family clown, always joking, even to the point where he could not have any conversation without a joke emerging. If he was proven wrong in a conversation his response was to make a joke to cover up the fact that he was wrong. The hero brother would rage at anyone who told him he may be wrong about something. The scapegoat, that was me, would feel hurt all the time for demeaning even when there was nothing to demean. I did risky things to have attention from others outside of the family. The impression I was left with my entire life was that everyone else mattered but me. This was the nature of our family, while knowing that God has delivered me from this hate and contempt there is still residue of this that I deal with although far less. Sadly these disfunctional people have had influence on our children who have learned to treat me with the same contempt they saw others demonstrating. I know there are others of you out there who have encountered this, I want you to know there is healing and deliverance from this through Jesus Christ.  Follow the link to hear about this!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MsDvGGB0BAo