The Idols Are Gone!

I stopped praying for my children for a couple of months and told people I was, because I have prayed for them for more than 40 years now and believe my prayers during that 40 years still count. I became weary of praying and praying and praying only to watch them get worse.

So I turned them over to God completely to do whatever He will, whatever it takes to bring them to their knees. I know God is going to work one way or another, that is up to Him.

I felt a need for a break from the continual cogitation on their problems, their rebellion and their disrespectful attitudes. Now that I have had that break, the joy has returned and I have begun praying again, only without the agony anymore.


Also the desire to show them their need has left me, the realization that they may never be in my life again is not a grief anymore. The Lord has given me peace, what He does with them is up to Him.

I was also convicted that in my grief, my children had become idols to me. I placed far too much importance on their lack of love for us. When I realized that I was courting idols in my life, I was transformed into a free woman. Bondage to idols, whether they be artifacts, statues or people, will take it's toll on our spiritual walk.

I have never lost my love for my children, that will never go away, but I no longer expect anything, all my expectations have been laid at the feet of Christ.

No more idols, no more expectations and no more desire to help them fix their own lives. However, until God fixes them, I have to keep my distance, to prevent the mistake of returning to idols.

Yep, there is still hope, but a calmer more joyous hope in Christ rather than in the children.